I have always known I was bi. I have always liked girls and guys from a young age. Now I have fallen in love with my best friend who is a girl. It is not like a little crush, I truly love her. I think about her all the time. I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about her. I want to date her, and be with her. It is not just a friendship love, it is something more. I care about her more than I care about myself. The problem is for all I know she is straight. I do not know what to do. Also I have not come out to anyone besides my close friends, but not her. She is my best friend, but i also want her to be mine
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While your situation is a tough one to be in, it is far more common than you would think. Coming out to friends and especially best friends can be one of the hardest things to ever do in life, especially at your age. And then in your case, having huge crush on your best friend complicates it. My best advice for you is to at least for now just stay best friends with her. This prevents a potentially damaging reaction from her if she were to feel uncomfortable with how you feel. But while right now, is probably not the time to share how you feel, that doesn’t mean never. In the next few years, you can get her opinions and mention comments (indirectly) to see how she feels about bisexuality. After you realize her opinions, and she doesn’t object, then you just have to wait for the right ‘moment’ that you can have the talk. Everything will work itself out in the end, and there is no need to rush sharing your feelings, and risking possibly making your friendship either awkward if she were to feel uncomfortable. Just enjoy what you share together now, test to how she feels about bisexuality, and then wait for the right moment to have the talk with her to share exactly how you feel.
Finally, never forget to be proud of who you are. You are just as you are meant to be. Show the world something it has never seen before, a unique you. All of the puzzle pieces of life will fall into place, with time when you can come out and talk to your friend. In the meantime, live proud and live you.
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